Fear that in one year someone can become so close and go so far.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Just a year..
Feb 11. It's been a year. One whole year to the day since Sam went away. One year since Toms forgot how many times she's cried. One year since I cried openly in a public bus depot. One year since I read the words 'Sam no more'. One year since I blocked out the memories of those days when I needed to be strong for my friend. One year since my emotional state declared 'heart dead'. One year since I've loved someone and felt fear. Fear of waking up someday alone. Fear that I won't be able to see again because of the curtain of tears. Fear of not knowing what to do anymore with life. Fear of finding it meaningless despite having all the ambition in the world. Fear of not being able to share the joy of success, sorrow, pain, confusion. Fear of not being able to experience pure unadulterated happiness.
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Who is this person whose loss has affected you so strongly Pras?
Don't think about it. Life is less complicated when you're happy with what's around. Let the complications come when they have to and we can all deal with it in the best way we can.
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